You heard me. By "you" I of course meant the few people who will read this. I suppose I, in a double entendre, also meant the universe. Hello, and thank-you kindly for your time.
It has been said that if you truly want something, positive thinking can manifest it into reality. It has been said... Right? I mean, I can't reference this to anything or anyone specific, but is has been said. I'm pretty sure of it. Well, whether it has or not, I am saying it now because I know this to be true. I knew this to be true for many years in fact... Why am I blogging about it tonight then, and why didn't I blog about this years ago? Well, this blog didn't exist years ago for one, and for another, tonight just so happened to be an example of this sort of manifestation.
Over the last few months, I've found myself helping others with line readings for plays, and standing in doing lines with actors on television shows, and it began to stir something inside of me, something that I forgot was there. The joy of entertaining others... The rush of being up on stage and being in time with the other performers... It is an intimate feeling, with both the performers and the audience, and even more with oneself... I have missed this feeling. I had, I suppose at an earlier point in my life, put the thought aside of being an actor and pursuing something else within the entertainment industry because, well, I don't know why? At the time, I wasn't living in Toronto, I had a difficult time finding an agent, and I didn't have any training, nor did I even think to go to school for it... Why? Fear perhaps. I might have been afraid. I had a lot of people who expected me to become a famous Hollywood actor and I put it all aside. Maybe I wasn't sure it was what I wanted, or I thought I was just doing what other people wanted me to because I enjoyed making people happy, or maybe I didn't think I would have a healthy lifelong relationship if I became famous, because who in the business really does? I'm sure there are a few, but very very few, and I feel I really wanted that then... Whatever, I'm rambling now! Anyway... I started to feel like I needed to rekindle my passion for acting, so I told it to the universe. At first, I tried to get some auditions... I ended up landing one, for a part that I didn't fit the description, which I didn't get, though I did impress the panel from what I overheard as I was leaving. From there I landed one other audition which I didn't go to because it was sketchy and my friends were concerned that I would end up drugged, molested, and possibly dead had I shown up to it. Then for a while, there was nothing, nothing except that desire to get back to doing what I used to love doing so much, so I told the universe I wasn't finished yet... Then in happened...
Two nights ago I got a message from a friend who said that a theatre group she works with was looking for a few male actors to be cast in a play scheduled to run six times in November. I was asked to show up and do a reading as the main character in one of the two plays in the production... Tonight, I showed up, and discovered that I wasn't the only person reading for the lead role. There was only one other person, who seemed to be familiar with the production staff of the theatre group. As it turns out he was in other productions of theirs, but I did not think for a second that I wouldn't get the lead role because of that, because the character was almost me. You know me? A nice guy, who in this story dies and asks for a second chance to come back and do things a little better... Yeah, sounds like something I would do. So, I got the part. We read through the script twice... I was a little nervous, but I felt it worked for the character, so I embraced it. What was the worst that could happen? I could die? Not likely, but then if I did I would have at that moment become the best method actor EVER. I am not dead though. No, I am quite alive. I feel good about this... This is just the beginning.
Stay tuned.
<3
ps. Oh yeah, the point... Don't give up on your dreams. Give up on your doubts.
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