Poetry (4 the insane): Who?

This is a song I wrote lyrics for (a long time ago), but never really figured out the music for, mainly because I play guitar very poorly... So, in a way, it is more like a poem, maybe? You be the judge...

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I called a friend the other day when I got home, 

I'd say that he was wasted by the way he sounded on the phone. 

It could have been the way he slurred and sometimes moaned, 

As he carried on I drifted off to thoughts of you with no decline. 

Who’s seen a light that blinds? Who reads between the lines? 

Whose climbed a tree before its leaves decayed and someone died? 

Who blows at the colour red? Who stops and thinks instead? 

Is this for real, who dreams up worlds all inside of their head? 

Well, I know that I do. 

I climbed a mountain and I shouted out your name, 

I know you didn't hear me but I did it twice more anyway. 

Somewhere beneath the stars I wound up on your mind, 

You didn't know the reason but you smiled and just now you know why; 

Nonsense can seem so strange; Frustration numbs the brain, 

Cause I'm not mad it doesn't mean that I'm not truly insane. 

Like monkeys shot to space, I'm dazed but feeling fine, 

If there’s a paper that can prove it, hand it over I'll sign. 

Space monkey was that friend of mine.

I saw a good friend on the weekend that just passed, 

I told her all about you and she warned me that it might not last. 

Not for the reasons I’ve had bad luck with romance, 

It’s just that you seem perfect and for heartbreak I say worth the chance. 

Who eats all by themselves? Who sleeps alone at night? 

When all they had to do was take a chance and roll the dice. 

Who dwells on moments passed? Who sings these lonely songs? 

I thought that love was perfect so I guess that I’ve been proven wrong. 

Now its time to carry on.

I’ve been alone; I would be glad to say, 

I met a girl in this universe that makes me crazy. 

I’ve been hopeful, close so many times, 

Just hopeless when you cross my mind; where is mine? 

I thought about you and it made my knees go weak, 

I only hope that if we meet again I'll have the strength to speak. 

Till then I'll carry on as something I must do, 

Imagining the thrill the day we meet to hear you feel it too. 

When you find love that brings you smiles ear to ear, 

Don't hesitate to hold them close each time you have them near. 

My dream girl passed me by, I fumbled it was lame, 

She's gone and though we barely met I'll never be the same. 

I never even asked her name. 

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I went as far as recording a YouTube video of it (a long time ago)... The name of it then however was "I Thought About You"... That may still end up being the name, it does however clash with a series of semi-poems that I wrote that being with "I Thought About You" so, whatever. Check it out, note the extremely long hair!

In other news. My day today was/will be, like this...

Michael wakes up.
Michael gets phone call from past employer asking if he can come in to help.
Michael showers and goes to work.
Michael works well.
Michael goes home.
Michael writes blog.
Michael does some writing.
Michael goes out.
Michael goes to sleep where ever he ends up.

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Do 1 Thing: Own It!

No matter what it is you do, own it. OWN, IT. I took a gig yesterday as a 2nd Unit TAD on a Tier A television series filming here in Toronto. For you non-industry people, a TAD is a "Trainee Assistant Director" or a "Trailer Assistant Director", whose responsibilities (aside from dispensing appropriate paperwork to all the necessary people) include being early (seriously), keeping your calm and cool when the shit storm hits the industrial sized fan, and being the line of communication between set, and hair & make-up, and the cast. Essentially, the TAD is a glorified babysitter to the cast. If they need anything, the TAD takes care of it. So, that was it, that was my duty, and I owned it.

Today... What do I do for myself. What is my one thing? Gym? No, I walked a LOT yesterday. Clean up my living space? Yes. Do some writing exercises? Yes. Update my resume and email it to at least one production company or ad on Craigslist... Yes. Done!

Enjoy your day.

Do 1 Thing

Keeping it simple because I've got things to do...
What did I do today to further my goals?
I sat at a coffee shop and edited a script.
I sent out a resume.
I got myself a gig as a daily AD tomorrow on a Tier A television series, Alphas!
Then I made my lady quinoa black-bean chili and watched Community.

End scene.

Do 1 Thing

If you have been reading my blog you might remember my mention a different blog that I follow called "Do 1 Thing", a personal journey about making oneself accountable in taking one (or more) step(s) a day towards achieving their dreams. No? Regardless, pay attention...

I've taken some rather large steps in my recent life. I've joined The Directors Guild of Canada (DGC), to further my goal of being a filmmaker. I've moved to my own apartment where the only personal I have to be responsible for is myself. I also joined a gym to compliment my change of diet, to better my health, body, and mind. These were all rather simple things to do, yet it took me a while with getting around to doing them. Why? Could be that I was allowing myself to be a lazy procrastinator, or I was holding off with concerns of others and how my decisions would affect them, and it is even more likely that I was just scared. I'm in it now though, I've made the first changes, I'm doing. With taking these first steps, with making these changes, comes new challenges, new reflections, and a heightened awareness of time. With all of this new time I've had lately has come lots of thinking, and "Do 1 Thing" is one of the topics that has come to mind. The author is someone who I truly admire and respect, and has already inspired me to start this blog. I still however haven't made myself accountable to it, to my daily challenges, and I feel that because I appreciate their method so much, I might have to imitate it.

I've been thinking a lot about my dreams lately. Not the ones that wash over me nightly while I sleep, but the ones I create for myself and place on a map of my future. I think about how my map must look, the path I've travelled on it, and all of the markers I've pinned to it along the way. I look at the string of markers I'm close to with my dreams of filmmaking and notice that they all branch from one thing, my lost love of acting... It has always been a plan that I would make my own movies and play parts in them, but what of just acting in anything else? I realize I gave up on acting when I lived in Barrie many years ago, because finding an agent, and even doing extra work was just too difficult. I had to take time off work, I had to drive to Toronto, pay for parking, and at the end of the day, I'd be so far in the hole that it didn't make sense anymore, despite it being a lot of fun... Now that I'm living in Toronto, it is something I should have thought to reconsider, but I haven't... Until now.

Today:
I went to the gym.
I sent out resumes for on-set assistant director work.
I sent out emails and head shots for acting work.
Most importantly, I began making myself accountable for my dreams.

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Do 1 Thing

Give credit where credit is due. That's right. We all succeed with perseverance and a little bit of elbow grease, blood, sweat, and tears. Sometimes we do it all on our own steam, and sometimes we do it with a helping hand. So give yourself credit for a job well done, if you feel you deserve it, and if you've succeeded with the help of others, make sure you let them know their help was appreciated. I would like to give myself credit right now, on a small scale, for creating this blog and keeping it up daily, thus far. However, this blog, and the things I'm about to delve into over the next few days, weeks, and months, are happening sooner than later because of this blog that I am following...

Nat Does 1 Thing

So, Nat... Thank-you for sharing your journey with others. You are an inspiration.