This Is About You

There are a lot of things I could have gone out and done tonight.
I had several invites to be social, and I didn't accept any of them.
I feel like maybe I did let some people down tonight in doing so.
There are a lot of things I could say but the best is perhaps sorry.
I felt like I needed to spend time alone isolated in my apartment.
I have almost been out every single night since New Years Eve.
I was a wreck then, and I have not given myself time to recover.
As much as I would have honored these friends company, sorry.
If we are not good to ourselves, we will be of no good to others.

Photo Journal - Week One: Into The New Year

It is important to take advantage of the basic abilities we possess.
Walking...

I've been going for a walk every day so far this year.
For anywhere from thirty minutes, to four hours so far...

A different path every time.

I found myself at the Allan Garden's Conservatory, at Sherbourne & Gerrard.

I had known about it for a while, and kept telling myself I would check it out...

So, I finally did!

<3

It was like stepping into a different country. One with no snow...

The flowers were beautiful.

I like turtles.

They like pizza, and skate boarding.

As well as fish watching.

These dogs are aware of each other.

This shot didn't come out well, but it defines the night... Blurry.

We wanted to play pool, but there wasn't a proper set of balls...

So we just played to see who could sink the most.

I lost every game, but had a great night, and a decent hangover...

Today, I went to visit family. It was my nephew's first birthday.
Happy Birthday Gabriel!

2013, Really?

That was not the kind of night I expected... WTF?
I chose to get home, where the love of a purring feline greeted me.
I feel this was the right choice, being alone...
I have some questions, or quests in the new year now though...
Things I can't shake from my mind with everything that's happened in the last few weeks.
Things that were, and weren't said...
Hell, with everything that occurred tonight, I've got to ask myself, honestly...
Who am I?
Who am I to myself?
Who am I to others?
Who do I want to be?
I already know what I want to do, and how I can make it happen...
Everything isn't as clear as it seemed to be before, and maybe it will be again...
Until then, I push forward...
Why though? What is the point I can't help but wonder...
What will I make of it when things start to happen?
Who am I going to be?

This year is going to change me...

It's The End Of The World As We Know It

If you are reading this, please do yourself a simple favor. Regardless of what you may or may not believe, the fact of the matter is that tomorrow is expected to be a monumental day in history. Absolutely anything, and everything in this world - in this universe - is possible... I don't have any expectations as to what tomorrow might bring. I just know that when I walk out of my door to go about my day, I'm going to leave with a smile on my face, and love in my heart, and whatever happens from there, is meant to be. I urge everyone to do one thing above all things tomorrow, and that is to be good to one another.

Thank-you <3

Before The Year Ends

If I may be so bold as to speak from the heart, I would like a moment of your time to tell you how wonderful I think you are. I am never sure whether or not I express myself enough to the people who are important to me; people who have made me smile, who have made me laugh, and who have been supportive of me when I was unable to do either of those things. That is what this is all about. I love you. Yes, I do. I’m not asking for reciprocation or seeking praise. I simply want you to know that you have improved the quality of my life, and I am sorry that all I can offer you are these words for you deserve much better.

Thank-you. I wish you all the best through the holidays, and in the new year.

<3

Lost In The Woods

It Is The Way

In our life time, there is a question of the way it was, the way it is, and the way it will be. Though these moments both exist, and pass, with elements of unspoken mystery, there is in them a sense of comfort that what we've done, what we're doing, and what we set our sights on, has a purpose. I find myself closer to where I've always wanted to be, with the experiences I've desired in my reach... The journey travelled from unexpected directions. I would say I got lost on my map, but if I didn't get lost I might have never been found. That is the way of life.

2012 was my year of love... It was joyous, and painful.

2013 will be my year of passion... I expect no more or less of it.

You though, should expect a lot more from me. <3