This Is About You

There are a lot of things I could have gone out and done tonight.
I had several invites to be social, and I didn't accept any of them.
I feel like maybe I did let some people down tonight in doing so.
There are a lot of things I could say but the best is perhaps sorry.
I felt like I needed to spend time alone isolated in my apartment.
I have almost been out every single night since New Years Eve.
I was a wreck then, and I have not given myself time to recover.
As much as I would have honored these friends company, sorry.
If we are not good to ourselves, we will be of no good to others.

Photo Journal - Week One: Into The New Year

It is important to take advantage of the basic abilities we possess.
Walking...

I've been going for a walk every day so far this year.
For anywhere from thirty minutes, to four hours so far...

A different path every time.

I found myself at the Allan Garden's Conservatory, at Sherbourne & Gerrard.

I had known about it for a while, and kept telling myself I would check it out...

So, I finally did!

<3

It was like stepping into a different country. One with no snow...

The flowers were beautiful.

I like turtles.

They like pizza, and skate boarding.

As well as fish watching.

These dogs are aware of each other.

This shot didn't come out well, but it defines the night... Blurry.

We wanted to play pool, but there wasn't a proper set of balls...

So we just played to see who could sink the most.

I lost every game, but had a great night, and a decent hangover...

Today, I went to visit family. It was my nephew's first birthday.
Happy Birthday Gabriel!

2013, Really?

That was not the kind of night I expected... WTF?
I chose to get home, where the love of a purring feline greeted me.
I feel this was the right choice, being alone...
I have some questions, or quests in the new year now though...
Things I can't shake from my mind with everything that's happened in the last few weeks.
Things that were, and weren't said...
Hell, with everything that occurred tonight, I've got to ask myself, honestly...
Who am I?
Who am I to myself?
Who am I to others?
Who do I want to be?
I already know what I want to do, and how I can make it happen...
Everything isn't as clear as it seemed to be before, and maybe it will be again...
Until then, I push forward...
Why though? What is the point I can't help but wonder...
What will I make of it when things start to happen?
Who am I going to be?

This year is going to change me...